More on my health

It is somewhat misleading to come to conclusions on the basis of these postings. When the pain I have as a result of this disease diminishes or goes away, I regain the energy to write. But when it returns it is just too hard to sit down and write.

So this might give the impression that the pain free times are longer, when they are not. Right now I'm fighting the pain to write this posting to correct this false picture.

The morphine dosis has been raised twice but this insistante disease follows in its tracks. There are other discomforts in addition but I don't want to bore you and disgust you with the details. Next to the pain the worst are the fact that I can not eat regular food. I am hooked up to machine wich pumps artificial food into my stomach. The other is the damage to my saliva system whick makes my mouth constantly dry.

As you can see, the quality of my life has not stopped sinking and I am more and more impatient for the day to come that will end all this suffering.

George has taken over writing the articles on France for the Hungarian News Portal, and he is doing a very good job. One of the few pleasures I still have left is the daily fire I have, watching it from the sofa, in front of the fireplace. Some friends come by and visit but otherwise I share the day with Bodri and Anne, the later taking excellent care of me. The computer is also a great help in keeping the door to the World open for me. I hope to write you soon, which would mean that I hurt less.